Words mean something. “Relapse” means to deteriorate into a previous state. You can never do that.
Just like you can never step in the same river twice, you can never be the same person once you have experienced something new.
Why use words like war or parasite or failure? Does porn have power OVER you? Words mean something and you can choose words that empower you or words that set you up for heartache and pain.
What words are you using that you might replace with a better choice?